Sometimes These Things Just Pop Into My Head: I Would be the Worst Super Hero

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When I was a child, and all throughout my adolescence, I would dream of being a super hero.

I loved them all. Superman, Batman, Spiderman, even Aquaman. I collected every comic, toy, and collectable I could get my hands on. And in the interest of being honest, things haven't changed all that much now that I'm in my thirties. I don't buy comics and toys all that much, but I have a nice collection of Marvel and D.C. clothes... yes, even undies.

It occurred to me rather recently, and better late than never, that one of the reasons I was so fascinated with all these amazing characters and their fantastic lives is because I wanted desperately to be someone else. Someone better than who I was and who was able to do something worth while in the lives of others. I make it no secret that I have always struggled with a lack of self esteem and a poor self image. But these stories and their characters held a chance for escape from the exclusion and the reality that the underdog doesn't always come out on top, in fact, he hardly ever does.

Looking back it seems so odd to me that I wasted so much time wishing I could be someone else. That I tried so hard to find my identity in things that could never happen. When it turns out this whole time, I already had an identity waiting for me in the Most High YHVH. I had spent so much time in make believe that I didn't even read to notice that the most fantastic tales were waiting for me in His word. That He had made me to be someone who, though a part of the greater body of believers, has my own place as an individual set apart for His greater purpose.

“Before I formed you in the womb, I knew you;
before you were born, I separated you for myself.
I have appointed you to be a prophet to the nations.”

These words, found in Jeremiah 1:5, speak volumes. The El of the universe had each and every one of us planned from the beginning. He made us all unique and with a special purpose to be used in unity with each and every member of the body. We are, every single one of us, called to a greater calling inside His love.

“For you fashioned my inmost being,
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.”-Psalm 139:13

The Psalmist here reiterates the words found in Jeremiah, and vice versa. We were all made with singular care. We aren’t just shoved out of an assembly line. We are all one of a kind. Made with the hand of The Master Craftsman. The fact that I wasted so many years feeling left out and unimportant is really utterly ridiculous in light of all the words found in scripture. Abba loves us all and has made us all in His image. Any feelings of worthlessness we may feel are not of Him. He wants every single one of us and has endowed us with the awesome power of His Ruach.